Three years ago today my ex and I officially closed on the Mold Home. I don’t talk much about mold and that time of my life these days but the anniversary is one that I can’t let pass without sharing more.
So, let’s take it back.
December 15, 2020. We show up at the house to do the final walk through before heading to the lawyers office to close. This was actually the first time that my ex and I were in the house together. I was the one who viewed it and knew it was “the one” while he was away at work and he was the one who attended the inspection while I had a prior commitment to attend. Showing up there together for the first time was exciting. Our home!! Stability! A fresh start! I was so excited but that excitement quickly dissipated. There were signs that we should have turned away then. I recognized them and knew them to be just that. And yet, I ignored them because the thought of having our own space and stability after a year of struggle was so enticing. But those signs to turn away were very much there. The washer and dryer that were a part of the deal were taken by the previous owners. My ex hit his head super bad on the ceiling in the basement. And we showed up at the wrong location to close because the lawyers address was wrong on google. Three strikes and yet we followed through.
That all makes it seem like I regret not listening to the signs. That’s not exactly the case. I am very grateful it all happened and I know that it happened exactly as it should have. But not listening to the guidance that was being presented to us set us up for a lot of stress, struggle, and ultimately, separation.
Two days later we were deep cleaning and found a wall covered in mold behind the refrigerator. Literally. An absolute takeover. We drenched it in bleach to “clean it.” Well, I didn’t. I spiraled into a panic and paced around in the other room because I knew that mold was bad, yet I had no idea just how bad it actually was. And I had no idea how bad of an idea it is to “clean it/kill it” with bleach. Don’t do that!
Once we did that the wall looked clean. We bought a new refrigerator and moved on. I didn’t see anymore mold so I thought that we were good.
A few weeks later I was plunged into severe sickness and I didn’t connect the fact that mold was behind the fridge until almost a month later. From that point on I learned more about mold than I ever cared to know and I was taken on a journey that I don’t know how I would have gotten through if I knew what was coming.
It took me a solid year to regain some semblance of health even though there are still lingering issues that I’m working through to this day.
Sleeping through the night consistently, what’s that?
Through that time period I realized just how big of an issue that mold is for so many people. I understood how it consumes their life and plagues them with fear because of the poisonous potency that it has on body and mind.
Sitting here now I can say that I am not fearful of mold anymore. I am aware of it and don’t want to live in it. But I do not live in fear of it.
The mold experience was the best and worst thing that happened for me. It catapulted me into alignment and onto the exact path that I am meant to be on.
It taught me
To advocate for myself and stand strong in my lived experience no matter what anyone else says or thinks.
To believe in peoples struggles even if you can’t see them or relate to them.
The utmost importance of health. Without health we have nothing.
Signs are abundant and God is always speaking to us. We just have to listen.
If you’re not where you’re meant to be the universe will reroute your path to get you on the right road no matter how much you resist it.
Never stop fighting for what you know to be the truth.
The all-knowing holistic practitioners on Instagram mostly suck.
Less is more.
Nature. Nature. Nature.
Unexpected things will be the greatest healers. 75 Hard and Love. (Sounds cheesy but it’s true.)
Your body has innate wisdom that is designed to protect you and to heal.
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